Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Untitled
Time: 1230 noon
Place: Work
Mood: Dull, Sleepy, Lazy
Slept late last night. Was hoping to have another piece of Dexter but couldn't. Went online. Got hold of a friend. Was a rather odd conversation. It lead me to think of how my life has been again and how others have lived theirs. Odd. Very odd. Awfully disturbing.
I'm slowly having my senses back. Better get back to work.
Place: Work
Mood: Dull, Sleepy, Lazy
Slept late last night. Was hoping to have another piece of Dexter but couldn't. Went online. Got hold of a friend. Was a rather odd conversation. It lead me to think of how my life has been again and how others have lived theirs. Odd. Very odd. Awfully disturbing.
I'm slowly having my senses back. Better get back to work.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Hooked up
What's with me and these HBO-ish TV shows?
Six Feet Under. The show just made a big blast on me that I've been overly weepy. Mind you, the second and the third time I watched the last episode, it hit my gut again.
Rome. I love it. Factual, brilliant! It's pretty bloody but.. man.. outstanding.
Now, I'm on Dexter. It's a production of Showtime but seems like an HBO feature. This show makes me question my existence. I'm not the same old "dark," Gothic me.. and I'm not planning to be a serial killer either but the principles are just.. reflective of one's life.
I'm at work. Blogging. Haha. I was trying to get a glimpse of another Dexter episode. I was able to get through to the site.. but I had to stop the video as the first scene was a little bit intimate. I work in a place where bad thoughts should be kept and definitely "too mature" of a content should be held. I shouldn't even be blogging.. much more watching a show.
Cheesy flicks are just a waste of air time. I apologize for the abrasiveness. Good plots sweep me off and pretentious ones just make me rage... I hate bullshit. I am artist.. and forever will be. That hurts. Will I forever be an artist? Or am I going to be stuck in this drift? I hope not. I almost had my name but I took it down myself. Damn. That hurts even more.
Maybe these shows make me reflect on how I've been in my life. Six Feet Under: life begins and definitely will end. Live life to the fullest... trite. Rome: Survival, betrayal, politics. Dexter: Existence, evolution. Sounds queer for most as I try to share my deepest thoughts on how I view these shows and how it affects me.. but hell... We have our own taste.
Six Feet Under. The show just made a big blast on me that I've been overly weepy. Mind you, the second and the third time I watched the last episode, it hit my gut again.
Rome. I love it. Factual, brilliant! It's pretty bloody but.. man.. outstanding.
Now, I'm on Dexter. It's a production of Showtime but seems like an HBO feature. This show makes me question my existence. I'm not the same old "dark," Gothic me.. and I'm not planning to be a serial killer either but the principles are just.. reflective of one's life.
I'm at work. Blogging. Haha. I was trying to get a glimpse of another Dexter episode. I was able to get through to the site.. but I had to stop the video as the first scene was a little bit intimate. I work in a place where bad thoughts should be kept and definitely "too mature" of a content should be held. I shouldn't even be blogging.. much more watching a show.
Cheesy flicks are just a waste of air time. I apologize for the abrasiveness. Good plots sweep me off and pretentious ones just make me rage... I hate bullshit. I am artist.. and forever will be. That hurts. Will I forever be an artist? Or am I going to be stuck in this drift? I hope not. I almost had my name but I took it down myself. Damn. That hurts even more.
Maybe these shows make me reflect on how I've been in my life. Six Feet Under: life begins and definitely will end. Live life to the fullest... trite. Rome: Survival, betrayal, politics. Dexter: Existence, evolution. Sounds queer for most as I try to share my deepest thoughts on how I view these shows and how it affects me.. but hell... We have our own taste.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Assuming
Warning: Harsh rant!
I hate assuming people. I know sometimes I can't help to assume but I don't push it to the limits of intruding.
Why people should be careful about what they say:
1. The other person might have something deeper beyond what is seen.
2. It is presumptuous.
3. It is very intrussive.
If you are the kind of person who as much as possible tries to be as politically correct as it can possibly be, dealing with assuming people can be really difficult. I am one. Most of the time, I can't say what an idiot they are for thinking of that matter without asking. Or if that particular person doesn't want to ask, then let it all be.
This rant is all about my pride and my ego. Sorry. I don't do this often.. writing about it, that is of course. But I'm just plain irritated! Details are left to be unsolved. That's for me to keep. But this is just a reminder for these kind of people we deal with everyday to please.. STOP!
I hate assuming people. I know sometimes I can't help to assume but I don't push it to the limits of intruding.
Why people should be careful about what they say:
1. The other person might have something deeper beyond what is seen.
2. It is presumptuous.
3. It is very intrussive.
If you are the kind of person who as much as possible tries to be as politically correct as it can possibly be, dealing with assuming people can be really difficult. I am one. Most of the time, I can't say what an idiot they are for thinking of that matter without asking. Or if that particular person doesn't want to ask, then let it all be.
This rant is all about my pride and my ego. Sorry. I don't do this often.. writing about it, that is of course. But I'm just plain irritated! Details are left to be unsolved. That's for me to keep. But this is just a reminder for these kind of people we deal with everyday to please.. STOP!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Lazy Saturday
Lazy days...
So many things to do..
I don't want to move.
Kids are watching Mulan..
Hubby's resting..
I want to talk to somebody.
I am just overly bored.
So many things to do..
I don't want to move.
Kids are watching Mulan..
Hubby's resting..
I want to talk to somebody.
I am just overly bored.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
2008
After a long period of time.. I just opted to wallow time and read a few posted items by friends. And yes, it made me post my own.. It's good to look back see how the previous year went. More memories.. more to treasure... I'm claiming my posting and changing a few things...
1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
Burnt my skin during the summer and shoveled too much snow during the winter!
Took myself to Driving School
2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I haven't... and I'm not sure if I can really push myself from doing it.. I'd probably need therapy for it.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
A lot!
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes... Genevieve Haughton.
5. What countries did you visit?
Nope... hopefully I will soon!!
6. What would you like to have in 2009 which you lacked in 2008?
A raise!
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched in your memory, and why?
March: Career change
April: Death of a friend
Summer: Got my license
August: Renewed contract and got a raise right away
October: Got my first vehicle
December: Power-outage from Christmas Eve to noon! "I'm dreaming of a DARK Christmas?!?!?!"
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Placed my children to daycare
Career fulfillment
Got my license and my car!
9. What was your biggest failure?
To show more love...
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Luckily, no.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My lovely Cali SXT
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
??
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
??
14. Where did most of your money go?
Daycare
Food
phone bill
Car!
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Car..car..car..
16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Kanlungan by Noel Cabangon
I know it's so Pinoy cheesy...
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: Happier or sadder? Thinner or fatter? Richer or poorer?
Happier and sadder
Thinner (Yes, I still can get thinner)
Richer and poorer at the same time. I'd better do some budgeting.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Visit Manila.
More time for myself
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Stress out on small things
20. How will you be celebrating New Year?
Chilled.. (I got sick eh.. as in fever.)
21. Did you fall in love in 2008?
Yes.
22. What was your favorite new TV program?
Dexter!!!
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
None.
24. What was the best book you read?
Love you forever by Robert Munsch
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I can't sing pala talaga. Hahaha..
26. What did you want and get?
My Cali
27. What did you want and not get?
Clothes and shoes.. I had to keep myself from shopping.
Massage, manis and pedis, spas..
28. What was your favorite film of this year?
Dark Knight!
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old did you turn?
Worked, had dinner with the family, and had some lovely "Daddy Spa"!!
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More money! Hahahaha!
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Same old.. I love trying anything on. Believe me.. ANYTHING!
32. What kept you sane?
My husband and kids
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
None.. I'm a celeb myself.
34. What political issue stirred you the most?
Obama baby!
..and why Harper again?! Oh! Canada!
35. Whom did you miss?
My family.
36. Who was the best new person you met?
My boss. She's incredible.
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
Save a lot! Learn a lot!
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year
"You live, you learn.."
After listing everything that has been in the past year, I figured, it's not that bad. In fact, I've grown so much as a person and achieved so many things that I, myself haven't imagined. But amidst all the achievements, something seems to be missing.
Dexter... I watched all the episodes of the first season right before the year ended. I somehow can relate. It's not that I am very engrossed with bloodshed or any odd fetishes, but the fear of what I am... The facade that I usually put up to relay the messages that I want to send.
Both Sides Now by Joni Mitchell
Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons evrywhere
Ive looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on evryone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
Ive looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its cloud illusions I recall
I really dont know clouds at all
Moons and junes and ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As evry fairy tale comes real
Ive looked at love that way
But now its just another show
You leave em laughing when you go
And if you care, dont let them know
Dont give yourself away
Ive looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
Its loves illusions I recall
I really dont know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
Ive looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say Ive changed
Well somethings lost, but somethings gained
In living evry day
Ive looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
Its lifes illusions I recall
I really dont know life at all
Ive looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its lifes illusions I recall
I really dont know life at all
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons evrywhere
Ive looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on evryone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
Ive looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its cloud illusions I recall
I really dont know clouds at all
Moons and junes and ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As evry fairy tale comes real
Ive looked at love that way
But now its just another show
You leave em laughing when you go
And if you care, dont let them know
Dont give yourself away
Ive looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
Its loves illusions I recall
I really dont know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
Ive looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say Ive changed
Well somethings lost, but somethings gained
In living evry day
Ive looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
Its lifes illusions I recall
I really dont know life at all
Ive looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its lifes illusions I recall
I really dont know life at all
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Can't Go Bloggin'
So much for my first posting. How am I suppose to "regularly" go blogging if I can't even have the time for myself.
It's I believe midnight. Have my son sleeping in my arms as I type. How do I do it? Well, I just seem to manage to do so many things while I take care of my kids. I should honestly be sleeping now but I just want to blurt out so many things in my head that even myself I just can't decipher. It seems like I have so much to say but words don't seem to flow. Guess, I having a frozen brain again.
This is pointless and wasteful.
Good night!
It's I believe midnight. Have my son sleeping in my arms as I type. How do I do it? Well, I just seem to manage to do so many things while I take care of my kids. I should honestly be sleeping now but I just want to blurt out so many things in my head that even myself I just can't decipher. It seems like I have so much to say but words don't seem to flow. Guess, I having a frozen brain again.
This is pointless and wasteful.
Good night!
Thursday, February 21, 2008
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